I’ve never been this unhappy when a month ended. Sure, I appreciate the good things that happened, but its not really human to not grieve when there is a sudden loss of touch. Though i wont really call it grieving, more like I am in denial. It will progress, things will get better. Eventually. I don’t to wait. I kind of know the course of actions that follows, but again, you cant really predict the future. But all that is in my mind only confirms, that for now, all I wish for is to have a future. To have more days like this past month. I am sure we are capable of handling the problems together.